First of all, I have to say that I don't have a green thumb. Yup, it's pretty black. I'm not sure how it happened. I helped plant my parents' garden, and the things I planted always grew so well. But, out on my own, I can't get things to grow. I've done containers with Miracle Gro like soil. I've planted tulip bulbs--which come up in the spring but are super tiny for some reason. I've grown tomatoes, but again, super tiny. I've even had a few houseplants over the years. Yup, you guessed it, they always die. I haven't given up hope on growing things--I'm very persistent and determined--but so far, my thumb is still quite black.
Back to my houseplant's origin. It had been a month or two since my first miscarriage, and my friend, who had also experienced a miscarriage, came over one day with this tiny little fern thing (yeah, I don't even know what kind of plant it is). She said something about it being helpful to grow something. I didn't think too much about my black thumb then, but in the following months, when I lost another baby, and my pathetic garden failed, and my fall bulbs came up pathetically small, I started getting really, really discouraged. I often lamented to Brian, "I can't grow ANYTHING! Not a garden, not flowers, not a baby!" I cried and cried about it. My consolation was our apple tree--which I didn't plant--that was growing tons of beautiful Macintosh apples, my absolute favorite. And then one day, I saw my nephews and son chucking those apples across the lawn--they were ALL ruined. I sobbed and sobbed in the shower that day.
These memories came flooding back to me today when I looked at this plant:
You see, by some miracle or mercy from the Lord, this plant hasn't died. It has been two years since my friend brought it to me, and it is still going strong, despite the many times I forget to water it, or the many times when I over-water it. And I couldn't help thinking today that the Lord knew I just needed this little plant to grow for me.
So there it is, my random thought for the day. The Lord loves us SO much more than we can even comprehend. He manifests it in many different ways. I imagine there are too many of these to count, and often many that we don't notice or even recognize. But they are there, quietly letting us know that Someone is aware of us and our struggles, and He will never leave us to deal with them alone.