I don't remember a ton of things about Michael being a baby. I've kind of forgotten about his laugh, his baby babble sounds, what his favorite toys were. But, I do remember a few milestones, and I remember how excited I was when he reached them. He had just rounded past his sixth month when he started sitting on his own. And I was so proud of him.
And I remember how shortly thereafter,
he was sitting up in the tub all by himself. That felt like yesterday. So how did this:
happen? When did he get so big? And how in the world is she already seven months old?
It's a funny thing, Time. Some nights it drags and I think, "This is NEVER going to end! I'm NEVER going to catch up on sleep (especially lately with Michael's night terrors coupled with Rachel's teething woes). And other times I think, "Wow, she's already seven months old. That's closer to her one year birthday than the day she was born. And he's already almost four! Where in the world is that brake!How can time go so slowly and so quickly at the same time? And how can one want it to do both at the same time? Is that what it means to be a parent? Or is that simply another paradox of life?
It hit me the other day that I'm on the other side of college days. I looked forward to going to college all through my teenage years. And now, I'm so glad that chapter of my life--though I enjoyed it so immensely--is over. But seriously, how did I get here already?
I remember very clearly the day Ethan was born. I remember seeing him in the little oxygen chamber in the NICU. I remember sitting on the glider at Grandma's with Cal trying to figure out how to pronounce his name. I remember getting to hold him for a picture on his blessing day because it was so close to my birthday. And now, he's well over six feet tall and twenty-one years old. Soon, he'll be having these deep conversations with his own kids.
So while I look forward to sleeping through the entire night again, I'm trying to enjoy these kiddos and soak in their littleness. All too soon, another picture just like this one will be taken, except it will be Rachel's baby trying to walk.